Hello lovelies, Robin is back from treatment hell.

My parents put me into treatment several months ago, and now I'm free, free as a bird. I've had to reset my goal weights again, and I've already passed one of them, which was 115, so that's some good news!

Weight Goals
1. 115
2. 110
3. 105
4. 100
5. 95
6. 90
7. 85
8. 80
9. 75

Daily Calorie Goal
500-700

Alright, I'll be posting more frequently on here from now on, I promise!

Stay Strong, Anas!

~Robin ♥

So, I got on the scale last night and my heart practically leaped out of my chest. 111.6!!! A new low!

Using the energy from my absolute elation, I went straight from my shower into my crunches and practically passed out in bed. The next morning, I weighed myself again and BOOM!!!

109.5

I cannot remember the last time I was this happy! I'm almost able to forget my doctor's appointment today. Almost.

I got a new water enhancer called Mio Energy and I think it's what helped me drop those extra pounds. It has no calories, but is sweet so it helps quell sugar cravings. It also passes through you like tea so it gives me a sense of temporary heaviness, not permanent weight like normal water does. It also has vitamins in it, so that's good 🙂 I am so unbelievably happy, you have NO CLUE. I was honestly worried that I would never be able to drop below 113, and I almost started crying when I saw that beautiful number on the scale. I am one step closer to my ultimate goal weight 🙂 And it's a damn big step ❤

Stay Strong and Skinny, My Lovelies 🙂

~Robin ❤

So, I am just going to vent right now. I am sitting in a library around two hours after my last meal (Some FroYo) and I feel bloated and disgusting. I haven't dropped enough in weight to stop getting my period (I got it two days ago while I was restricting) and I am bloating up like NEVER BEFORE. I am fat and disgusting and I need to get rid of the weight but I don't have enough energy to run and I have no access to exercise machines or pools where I could work off the weight. I am freaking out and trying to figure out where in my day I went wrong and I keep coming back to the protein bar and the FroYo. From here on out, those two foods are out of my diet. If I need protein, I will have peanut butter and celery, not 200 calories of bullshit. My friends are all saying that I'm skinny and I need to eat more (I WEIGHT 113.5 HOW THE FUCK IS THAT SKINNY!!!) but they are fucking wrong. All they are trying to do is drag me off my horse and stick me in a hospital when there is nothing wrong with me! I have to go in for my first weigh in tomorrow so that's one upside to the period, it should convince the doctors there's nothing wrong with me. Because there's not. I'm just too fucking fat. I weigh too much. I'm about to do something drastic to get my weight down, maybe a week long liquid fast would work. Yeah, that and running every morning and doing crunches/leg lifts. Yeah. That's what I'll do. Great. Problem solved. Kind of. I still have to get rid of this dull full feeling. I hate how my stomach folds in when I sit down, it's disgusting. No one wants to see that, I mean REALLY. This is why I'm all alone in life. This is why I have never and never will have a significant other. Because I am fat and gross and over weight. I don't care what the doctors say to me tomorrow, I am done with being disgusting and a disappointment to my family. I will lose this weight, and I will lose it PERMANENTLY.

~Robin.

Breakfast: 1/2 cup of smoothie

Lunch: Protein bar (I KNOW I WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BUT MY FRIEND FORCED IT ON ME), spinach leaves, carrot bits, four banana slices, and two small celery slices.

Dinner: Nothing

Snacks: One small cup of Frozen Yogurt. And that's why I am not eating dinner. Although, I probably wouldn't anyway, but I have an actual reason for it besides loosing weight this time.

Trying to keep myself accountable for my intake, and I can safely say I kept it below 500 today 🙂 EVEN with the FroYo and protein bar, because even though the bar was 200 calories, there was no way I had 200 calories worth of FroYo.

Stay Skinny My Lovelies, Remember that You WILL Get There 🙂 ❤

~Robin ❤

Instead of focusing on celebrities for my thinspo crush, I'm going to focus on all the lovely attributes I will have when I lose all this excess weight!

This week: Thigh Gaps!

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Alright, I am starting on a new meal plan and exercise plan starting today. Here goes.

Mornings: Wake up at 5:20 and go for a long walk. Come back home and make lunch: Spinach leaves, eight cross sections of carrot, one celery stick, four cross sections of banana, one cup of smoothie. Make the smoothie: One cup of raspberries/strawberries, one half cup of skim milk, and a half of a banana. This will give you 1 1/2 cups (roughly) of smoothie. Pour one cup into a container for lunch and drink the other 1/2 cup for breakfast.

Lunch: Eat the prepared meal, nothing else. If eating at school, refuse any food your friends try and offer you. Say you already ate. Do NOT comment on how good everyone else's food looks, this will draw attention to your eating habits.

Nighttime: Drink lots of water and tea, but do not eat. If you have to, make a small salad without dressing or have 1/4 a can of tuna. Take a shower to relax, brush your teeth, and head to your room. Do 300 crunches and 150 leg lifts. You can divide these up any way you want, but GET IT DONE. After that, if you are sweating take another shower, brush your teeth again to instill the idea that food time is OVER, BRAIN. Then weight yourself, record the number either mentally or on a piece of paper, then hop in bed and sleep.

Repeat for Three Weeks.

So far, I am going strong! Wish me luck!

~Robin

Monday: One glass of a homemade smoothie for breakfast.
Smoothie Recipe: One cup of frozen Strawberries, One half cup of skim milk, One whole banana.

Tuesday: Fast

Wednesday: One ounce of heated up raspberries for breakfast and another ounce for dinner.

Thursday: A small salad without dressing for dinner.

Friday: One glass of a homemade smoothie for breakfast.

Saturday: One glass of a homemade smoothie for breakfast.

Sunday: One glass of a homemade smoothie for breakfast and another for dinner.

I­­­­­­­ am slightly afraid that I will not be able to lose any more weight. I have started waking up at 5:00 am every morning and going for a long run/walk which is followed by one mug of a specially made smoothie I make myself that consists of half a cup of skim milk, one cup of frozen strawberries, and a banana. I skip lunch, but it has gotten more difficult as my friends have begun to notice the lack of food that goes into my mouth. I might have to drop them if they are going to get in the way. My current weight is 113.7 which is KILLING ME. I don't know how to get my weight down again without having to leave my friends. I have ticked up my crunches to 300 a night and added 200 leg lifts along with them, but can't seem to lose any more weight, as I said before.

If anyone has any advice to give me on other ways i can lose weight, it would make me happy beyond words.

~Robin Aster ❤

Look at this beautiful woman. Her legs are thin, her stomach flat, her arms slender. Don't you want that?

Look at those beautiful hip bones and the stomach that doesn't flab over when she lays down on her side. Don't you want that?

Getting there is easy. Just follow Ana's rules 🙂

Stay skinny, sweethearts ❤ 🙂

~Robin.